The Reasons

Portland Rules

Howard Melworm

I love Shinobu.



I miss Shinobu.




I'll build a castle and I'll make it out of plans:

I plan on dropping the lame analogies and quoting my favorite bands.

And in a wry aside I sigh about how unhappy I am that you couldn't trust me (and I don't really like myself that much either).

I'm not asking for the world, but, hell, it would be nice to think that I have power over something. Anything, really!!!!

[I am alive and I'm not sure I like it, but I'm sure that I'd miss it, and I'm sure that I've expressed this in less annoying terms before. Oh oh! I'm like a speck of sand on the beach. Oh my god, that is so deep! I am sooo deep!]

You should read my livejournal.

Oct 9, 2012

"We expected something, something better than before." 

Day One

I've been thinking lately...I'm getting older, starting to compromise or sacrifice to follow my delusional dreams but at what point is that compromise worth it. I mean I went to college, got a degree and was told "You'll have the jobs you want and go out and do it." but then we inherit a shit economy and we sit around wondering what to do about it.

My mom has this whole thing that you work an X number of hours at something and that's what you get out of it and that's whats going to make you successful at something, but I'm not sure if I agree or believe in that anymore. I think part of it has to do with being born in the right time and the right place. I mean I excelled in school, did what my parents told me to do and still...it;s a matter of time and place and coming of age in the right time and right place or wrong time and wrong place.

It's just a lot of dealing with the cognitive dissonance between what I thought I was capable of and fighting the reality of what I am likely going to get and have to deal with.

Maybe this is it, I just have to come to terms that it is the wrong time and wrong place for me and that as much as I want to believe it will get better, it won't. 

Sea Of Love

The fact that I don't go to school anymore and spend most of the day time working makes it really hard to update this when I do get free time. Though, working more than ever has given me the chance to see shows more often. Here are some pics:

Acoustic Set by the Henry Clay People at Silverlake Lounge on July 25. 

Bomb The Music Industry! at All Different Colors on August 24. 

Joyce Manor at FYF Fest

The Walkmen at the Observatory on September 15

The Henry Clay People at Fingerprints on September 6. 

Two Gallants at FYF Fest

The Henry Clay People at the Bootleg Theatre on August 18

Some people are just idiots.

Only in Orange County would you see a hot pink Bentley. 

The Goal is not be well off financially but be better off culturally. 

Dim Wit.

It's weird not being in school anymore...it feels like for the past 18 years going to school was the only thing I was good at. I miss it. I miss being in a classroom, meeting new people, the actual learning aspect tho can't say the same about about the long papers and most of all I miss debating and talking about different everyday issues.

Just few things I took for granted

Something about driving through American Wasteland intriges me, 

I went to Yosemite few weeks ago. Something about being in the neck of woods makes you feel good. 

I was wondering the other day, why is that we turn pop figures into idols? 

Keep Your Weekends Free

If this is a test to see
which one of us will leave
you can count on me
you can always count (on me)

Kicking Telivision

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