Everytime

I fall in love with my music
I do, and maybe this is the root of my pathetic life
I fall in love with these romantic nothings
of some song about me, to me, for me, in front of me.
To know that people exist with these nothings
and these thoughts and these feelings
yet I have never experienced it...is Disheartening.
And I get these unrealistic notions of what to expect from someone.
or what to desire from someone.
and then reality is shoved in my face and
I realize that these people are few and
far between and shall never be interested
in the like of me.